The first time I really looked at my vagina was in my early teens. That’s when I got my period and started getting really personal with her. I remember never having any self-conscious thoughts or issues with my vagina, until I reached high school. Oh yes, that lovely place where you spend your most confusing, complicated years of life. Everyone is growing, changing, learning about themselves. Discovering new aspects of love and life. I started talking about bodies with friends, hearing stories, and learning what was considered "attractive." And then,came porn — where every vagina looked the same: small lips, clean-shaven, pink, and smooth. I suddenly hated my vagina. My inner lips stuck out, my skin tone varied, and razor burn was an inevitable nightmare. Not to mention, whenever I did shave I was so unbelievably uncomfortable.
Every video I watched had the same vagina. It made me think that there was something wrong with mine.
To make it worse, I heard whispers about a girl who was mocked and called “roast beef.” I was SO oblivious to the nickname until someone explained it to me. “It means her pussy looks like an Arby’s sandwich”. All it took was one google search of an Arby’s roast beef sandwich and I understood. Every guy was mocking her, every woman was judging her, and everyone was calling her roast beef. Except me. Because I learned that day I also have a pussy that looks like an Arby’s sandwich.
So… I’m the girl with a roast beef pussy in secret. I’ve learned at this point from porn and peers that a pussy like mine is ugly and gross. Throughout my four high school years, no one saw my kitty cat. When I had sex for the first time with anyone, lights stayed off.
In college, I never sent pictures of my pussy. For years, I hid her. Lights off during sex, no photos, no mirrors, just shame. I wanted to cut my labia shorter, wax everything smooth, and somehow force her into the "perfect" standard. My body had become my enemy.
And then, after college, I stumbled across All Things Worn. I genuinely thought I’d just be sending out dirty panties and socks every now and then to random men across the country. I was not expecting to have men requesting pictures, videos, and custom content. That lowkey freaked me out. I knew these requests would involve my pussy on full display. My roast beef, multicolored, hairy pussy… certainly no one is going to enjoy looking at it.
Boy oh boy, was I wrong. So wrong it isn’t even funny. I remember very hesitantly sending custom photos to one of my first buyers here. He had requested some standard nudes, but requested a specific picture of my pussy. Good lighting, lips spread… well fuck… he’s gonna see my ugly pussy. Only his response was the opposite of what I expected. In fact, he told me I have one of the prettiest pussies.
Sir? Are we looking at the same picture? Surely this is a man who doesn’t know what he’s talking about. But then the next buyer sent me a shit ton of heart eye emojis in response to my kitty pic. And then some told me they’d do anything for a taste of it. Someone rated my pussy a 9/10. A few came back and requested extended videos of JUST my pussy. I most recently had someone tell me I have a labia to die for.
Maybe I don’t have an ugly vagina? Was I mistreating her this whole time for nothing? Why the fuck did I hate her so much if everyone else loves her? I took a few steps back and started really thinking to myself about the importance of how a vagina looks. What it means to have a pretty vagina.
After some time of continuing to work on ATW and talking to buyers, I started to realize the perception I created of how a pussy should look was so fucking wrong.
I like my vagina.
The way people would praise her, tempt her, and admire her would make me want to do the same. I started watching the videos or looking at the photos I would take for customs. I’d stare at my vagina, like I’m talking, zoom in and examine her. I started to love her the same way my buyers did. I took a step back from shaving, because quite frankly I hate it. I would admire my bigger lips because they did look delicious when they were spread open. I’d appreciate the way she’d get wet and glisten. She looked unique to me. I have never seen someone with the same vagina I have, might as well embrace her uniqueness.
I still get praise for my pussy. Constant reminder that she’s beautiful. ATW didn’t just give me financial opportunities. It gave me confidence. It helped me break free from harmful beauty standards and love the parts of me I used to resent. In a sense, this place has shaped my brain to see the beauty in everything about my body.
So, shoutout to all the people I’ve interacted with who praised my pussy. You have been a part of this self love journey, and I appreciate you for it, even though you had no idea.
If you’ve ever felt insecure about your body, I want you to know:
Your unique body is beautiful.
Your scars are beautiful.
Your stretch marks are beautiful.
Your curves, your thinness, your height, your weight—it’s all beautiful.
YOU are beautiful.
If society has ever made you feel "less than," I promise, you are so much more. And sometimes, all it takes is seeing yourself through new eyes to truly understand that.
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Tuesday I love this so so much!!!
QueenVampire Thanks for this. We are all so hard on ourselves. Way too hard. You’re beautiful. I can tell by your writing.
LFG Amazing blog!!! LFG 🔥👑 But the roast beef part had me laughing 🤣🤣🤣
Piquantprincess You’re all so fucking awesome. Thank you for the love!! 😝😚😚
Glizzymcguire Loved this! Every vulva is beautiful!
PrincessHoney Love this🫶🏼
PapaBear47 Very beautiful. And yes atw is so good for this. Helping you feel better about yourself. So happy for you that you have got to the point you are now.
Reesiecups Great blog!
EssexTeeny ❤️❤️❤️
Naughty_Horse_Rider 👏🏼 that was fantastic! And spoke to me as it has many others. I felt the exact same way as you and it’s since joining ATW and receiving positive comments, that I have also learned to love her. Power to the pussy! In all its glorious shapes, sizes, colours and maintenance styles! Xxx
VelvetDiamond This is beautiful 🥲 thank you for writing this 🥰❤️
Maddison29 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Thebabymelon Wow, this really spoke to me!!!! I grew up thinking this way about mine too- I felt so ugly and ashamed and less of a woman for the way my labia looked. Thank you so much for this 🥲🩷
Sletjenni awhh man i love women, i love myself, i love you all, youre all beautiful inside and out!!
CurvyDollxx Thank you so much for such a beautifully written, raw and real blog! I’ve felt this struggle for years and always thought mine looked weird because it didn’t look like what I’ve seen in videos or whatnot. Always being nervous mine wasn’t good enough, thank you for such a great and relatable story! 🩵
XHazelxHeatherx RBP girly here and I genuinely teared up. Our stories are so similar and I absolutely loved reading that I wasn't alone with those same thoughts until coming here. 🫂 I'm so glad we are all that much more confident and sexy for it 🥰 💕
LFG 🍿🍿🍿
SweetLottie This was a beautiful read. Thank you SO MUCH. I love how this highlights many of our journey’s in becoming more self aware of our bodies and insecure because of what other people say from a very young age. We grow conditioned to believe something is wrong with not looking like a porn star. But that’s not real for the majority of us. I was never comfortable with pubic hair until this past year, now I love my bush and enjoy grooming her. I’ve had large labia since the beginning of time and now find her beautiful and delectable. 💖
Preciousjewel I love this. Something I’ve stopped since I’ve been here the last two months is apologizing for what I think is a bad picture or gross thing about me. 🫂 it’s carried over to real life that if so many people on here look at me like this then the people on the street who are afraid to say it do too 😋 I think we can all agree we are all baby humans just trying to live and figure it out together so we should be easy on ourselves.
Englishrosetoes36 So true this site really has helped many of us realised that the thing you worry about turns out to be the thing people absolutely love. I always thought my feet should always just smell of nothing which I could never achieve. Turns out the scent that comes off my tights and slipped after wear is coveted by many and is actually great. So glad you found love for your kitty 🥰
ChiaraFromSeoul Heartwarming❣️❣️❣️❣️
ThisNorwegianGoddess I keep coming back to read more comments. I love em!! They’re funny, they’re sad, but uplifting. I had said earlier that I’m all tucked in so never had that and was always ok with it I guess. But I ended up getting vitiligo that seemed to affect both sides equally, generally on joints, but then also my chin (that I struggle to hide everyday all day, and my hands in the summertime) and of course “down there.” My bf thinks it’s all beautiful, people here have said it’s like a natural tattoo and it’s awesome. I don’t think I will ever get there. I’ll always be self conscious. I’m so glad you made this post, I think it might help a lot of people who struggle with disliking things about their bodies.
_catlady69 I was and still am pretty complacent with my pussy but someone once said I had proportionally fat pussy to my thick thighs/fat ass and I said 🥲 you’re right! Made me look at it more positively!
Talia_lou @Ginger_Gemini ❤️❤️❤️ I feel you
GingerRuby I absolutely love your post and we are fellow beautiful roast beef sandwiches
Piquantprincess I love that yall love the blog!! I hope you all know you have beautiful kitties 😻😘
Ginger_Gemini I felt this in my soul 🥹 I hated my puffy lips. They reminded me of overdone lip filler. I've always been a chunky girl and my pooch was and still is one of my biggest insecurities. I try to avoid a front view of her where possible. She looks good from behind!! And as a whole I do still occasionally find myself apologising to people who request photos or pre warning them that I'm not the skinniest, or the prettiest and I feel sad for me for that. I've had babies, I'm getting older, have medical issues, medication changed my body Never had a single complaint and its still hard to accept a compliment. I really wish we all knew how to be kinder to ourselves ❤️
BeardedBelgian Well I for one am a huge fan of outies ❤️
LadyZ So proud for you!😀
Talia_lou This is way more powerful than you know. One day I hope to be where you are in confidence ❤️
ThisNorwegianGoddess That was a really awesome read. I love how you’re just real about it. I don’t have the same..I don’t want to say problem or issue..you know what I mean. Everything is tucked in for me. But I definitely know what you mean, and how bad people can make anyone feel. Excellent blog.
Carameldelight Loved reading this 🫶🏽 and funny enough, I was JUST thinking about this the other day.. as someone with.. not a pink pussy, it’s hard NOT to be insecure when it feels like the majority have a ‘pretty pink pussy’. I know confidence won’t happen over night, but definitely trying to get there 🫶🏽 thank you for writing this blog!
Princessmiso Thank you for this post! As someone who does not have the conventional neat "tucked in" kitty, and went through thoughts of doing more extreme procedures to fix how it looked, this was so relatable for me 🥹
Nick352388 The amazing thing about this site is the amount of body positivity. It’s amazing every flower 🌺 is beautiful 🥰
Cyberbob1978 As a guy 👦 this was a very interesting read x u ladies have the same insurcurites as us guys on genitals xxx it was a wonderful read thanks 😊 😀 👍
MumscreationsbyD Absolutely love this ! Me and my sisters always joked with each other why do we have to have “ and outie “ and not one of these little pink kitties all neat and tucked away ! Like you ATW has made me love my dirty doner kebab 🥙 she loves it and is loud wet n proud 😆😆 . Well done on this blog it’s fab hun xx
Steph93_36F YESSSS 🙌🏻 🙌🏻
Piquantprincess Thank you guys!!!! 🩷🩷🩷🩷
GoddessKadie Loved this read 📚 I think it's a genuine fear of any ladies that there kitty kat isn't going to be enough !! But we are not all.tge same and that's what's making us so unique we have more to offer :) thankyou for this !! Xxxx
Elless You’re amazing and this is amazing. Thanks for sharing 🩷
SalemRose Absolutely love this!!! I relate soooo much, and I’m so happy for you to see your shift in perspective. ♥️♥️♥️ we all deserve to love the skin we’re in. Self love feels so good! 🥰
LittleKitty69 Really good read, thankyou for that xx
Pandoras_Boxxx669 Love it!! Embracing our natural beauty and celebrating the uniqueness we have!💖💖💖
Sadierae2025 Love this @piquantprincess!!
Autumn_Angel Love this! 🩷 Being a woman that has been so critical of every inch of my body , posts like these really make you feel like you're not alone. Thank you for sharing beautiful! 🩷
Jasmine83 I'll definitely be reading this! Thank you for sharing 🩷🩷